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About braveraconteuse

Whenever I start with who I am, I begin with my family. So let's start. The first thing about me is that I am an eldest sister of twins. I like trios. Before the twins came, it was just my mum, my dad and me. The trinity. Then with the twins: it was my brother, my sister, and me. The triumvirate. I would say that i let myself have this definition: that of the eldest daughter & sister. Having said this, NOTHING else in this life defines me, You see, in everything else, I am an open book - one that any one can write on. oh!! and a shout out "1 love 4 all" (more info to follow)

Bar prep – about to begin

So I thought law school was tough.  I posted so many inspirational memes and quotes.  I did whatever it took to keep me on task, to stay motivated, and keep going.  But very soon, I’m going to begin bar prep, and that’s another beast completely.  Some of my friends say it’s OK; it’s not a law school exam; you’re not studying for an A but rather you’re studying to pass.  So all you want is a C.  And then others, who are BRILLIANT attorneys, still haven’t passed the State Bar that I’m about to take.  I think I can do it.  I know I’ve got a real task ahead of me, but honestly I went through law school when no one except my 2 of my closest friends thought I could.  And with bar review, I’ve been practicing and planning on-and-off for almost a year now.  I am prepared.  I can do this thing.  I have 3 and a half months to game this exam.  3 and a half months to kick butt.  3 and a half months to make it mine and master it for a pass.

No matter how many MC questions you put in front of me, I will conquer them.

No matter how many Essays, I will know the law and give it to them in a way that gets me those points.

No matter how many Performance Tests, I will write beautifully and get my points across.

I will practice. I will know it. I can do it.

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The Law written on our hearts

“Why does God write the law on our hearts? Why not in our hearts? It’s the inside of my heart that needs God.” The rabbi answered, “God never forces anything into a human heart. He writes the word on our hearts so that when our hearts break, God falls in.”

Whatever you hold sacred, you’ll find that an unguarded broken heart is the ideal instrument for absorbing it.

Ace of Clubs – learning and loving

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The Ace of Clubs: The Accumulations Card

This is the card of knowledge. The Ace of Clubs is a true philologist. Constantly seeking out new fields of inquiry and examining the depths of the topic: a scholar. Impatient, the Ace of Clubs has small tolerance for the inane and the superficial.

The hallmark of the Ace of Clubs is curiosity. Intelligent and immersed in book learning the holder of this card is also highly intuitive and insightful. Restless in the presence of rules and regulations, they are more at home in libraries than in corporate offices.

The Ace of Clubs can be needy and demanding of those who enter their sphere of influence, but they always give as much as they demand. Precision and excellence are expected. When their expectations are not met they can be merciless.

Cultivate this one! Just as they accumulate scholarly information they accumulate spiritual knowledge. Wisdom may be long in coming, but it comes in abundance.

The Two of Hearts: The Liaison Card

This is the card of lovers: idealistic and determined to experience all that romance can offer. However, there is also a tendency to be too practical and too demanding for romance to flourish unfettered.

Curiosity and a desire for knowledge are hallmarks of the Two of Hearts. Once a direction has been decided upon it is held with rigor. Constantly seeking companionship and a loathing of being alone. The Two of Hearts attracts companions who have quick minds and a rousing sense of inquiry.

Fulfillment on every level is attainable. It just isn’t as easy as it seems on first appraisal.

Important cards (inspirers)

The King of Clubs: The Second Nature Card

This is the card of long habit and extensive practice.

Responsibility and respect are the hallmarks of the King of Clubs. The distinctions allotted to the person holding this card are well earned for the espoused doctrines are theirs by dint of hard work and scholarship. Nothing second hand or unexamined for this King.

Inexhaustible determination to understand is fed by the desire to live on their own terms. The King of Clubs is a goodly inspiration. We would all do well to emulate him.

a grave and drastic action

Sometimes you don’t know how much weight you’ve gained until you’ve seen the stark cold reality from photos and pictures — and they show the facts.  As you are living in your own body with eyes looking outwards, it somehow gives an opening for you to not  even see how much weight has piled on, and how many extra kilos you are now carrying.  The visible change, which is visible to others, is now visible to you.  This is not a small thing.  Something must be done about this.  And as this matter has become  a weighty matter — literally a heavy weight on your body, on your frame, on the apparatus that carries the “you” who breathes and lives and thinks and writes, it can only be a heavy and serious undertaking that can remedy this.  And because this change was drastic in your eyes, the countervailing action must be drastic too.

The Invitiation ~ Oriah Mountain Dreamer

…lunch time inspiration.  An old favorite:

It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing.

It doesn’t interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dream, for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life’s betrayals or have become shrivelled and closed from fear of further pain.

I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it, or fade it, or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own; if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, be realistic, remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself. If you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul. If you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see Beauty even when it is not pretty every day. And if you can source your own life from its presence.

I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand at the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, ‘Yes.’

It doesn’t interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone and do what needs to be done to feed the children.

It doesn’t interest me who you know or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the centre of the fire with me and not shrink back.

It doesn’t interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away.

I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.

You are the only student you have ~ Rumi

You are the only faithful student you have.
All the others leave eventually.

Have you been making yourself shallow
with making other eminent?

Just remember, when you’re in union,
you don’t have to fear
that you’ll be drained.

The command comes to speak,
and you feel the ocean
moving through you.
Then comes, Be silent,
as when the rain stops,
and the trees in the orchard
begin to draw moisture
up into themselves.